Gone in a blur...

This week has gone by in a blur... Thinking I could cope with it, I went to work, caught up with friends at dinner, went drinking and would come home with the alcohol slowly sedating me and lulling me to sleep with jumbled dreams about remembering to do things only to be woken up by the alarm clock to go to work again. This got repeated day after day - 21sts, COMSOC cruise, catch up drinking sessions thinking my body could physically cope with it. I could though. Something about nightlife makes me feel energetic and anticipative of what the night would bring.

It's all fine if you get enough sleep. But I didn't. And then I cracked. Waiting over 5 minutes in queues, trying to get my phone plan changed and being instructed to go to Orange and then to Optus and then to Orange and then to Optus again and in the end being told to come back the next day, old men making sleazy comments, and little things like my boyfriend not meeting me on time got me feeling stressed despite the warm weather and blue skies on a somewhat pleasantly sunny autumn day. I cried alone on a city bench and then realised how exhausted I was. Yet I still marched on shopping at the Paddington Markets, Oxford St and then Pitt St Mall because I felt like doing something was better than doing nothing.

I should change my attitude from "im only young once, I have to go out and see and experience as much as I can" to ... actually I don't know what. I'm used to trying to do everything in a short amount of time an example being going to 1 1 countries in a month and then repeating it again the next year by going around the world in less than a month. The consequences of that was throwing up on planes from catching 9 planes within 25 days yet I didn't care because it would bring me to a new country to see. I'm the type of person who would choose to go see as many things as she can rather than stay in one place and taking time to explore and savour what time can only bring. Changing my attitude would only make me feel bored and restless. So i guess I'll continue being myself with one exception - i'll make sure i get enough sleep!

Note (10:20pm): Some kind friends have called me to see if i'm "okay" after reading this post. I am absolutely fine and happy after having slept 10 hours last night! I was only stressed and tired for half a day but sleep does wonders to your wellbeing, happiness, and mood.