Letting go

Gradually I have been letting go and letting life take me to strange places, interesting people, and gaining a different perspective of my usual surroundings. Life has been so fun and sweet and I feel like a piece of dust that is being tossed happily by the wind.

The Mel that set boundaries and rigid expectations has relaxed and is enjoying whatever comes to her. Randomness dominates her life. I was looking at Sydney Harbour from different scenic locations at 3-6am in the morning - Vaucluse, Cremorne, Mrs Macquaries Chair and more. I didn't stop to think why Jesse was showing me all these scenic points but just went with the flow and I guess the beauty of it all answered my question. I didn't even think about capturing the beauty with my camera- I just soaked it all in at that moment. I've met people from the DJ world who seem to live in a totally different world to me, avoiding reality and watched them be wild creatures in their underground world. I caught glimpses of what makes Jesse who he is over Chai tea and hot chocolate in a random Newtown coffee shop with asian bamboo plants and Mexican lampshades. A breaks DJ who used to go to UFO meetings and got a UAI of 99.1? Some strange paradoxes there!

I do have lows. It was only a few days ago I was crying in my bed because I selfishly didn't want Chris to leave. Especially since we've grown closer. And then I met Jesse and we clicked so well and he has taught me to learn that everything is ok and has given me a different perspective about life. He has to leave soon too! So I'm not looking forward to the day when the two people I have been closest to lately will disappear from my life. But I'll be ok. I've gone through a lot of changes and there are more coming this year but I'll go through it.