A Different Direction

Today was a really beautiful Sunday which I spent having a 3 hour lunch with Johnny at Icebergs in Bondi. I went out the night before but my heart wasn't totally into it as I guess it's what I've been doing every week. The view was amazing because the sky was cloudless and the water was clear. I saw John Burgess (the Wheel of Fortune man) and he's aged heaps now and has some skin problem on his face.

When I became single, going out every weekend was heaps of fun and I would meet lots of interesting people and encounter different experiences but now I must be getting a bit bored because it's not as fun and fulfilling anymore. The question is, now what? My life has always been a bit balanced (going to the library after going shopping, going to Church after clubbing, dinner with Grandma before drinking with friends etc) and I like doing a bit of everything but what should I take up now?

I've been doing a bit more reading than usual, will be going to bible study, have borrowed a few German books to read to brush up on my German, have started a scrapbook (but I'm still keeping a diary) where I'll write more, will start playing piano more but these are just little things. What I would really like is a studio so I can fiddle around and compose different styles of music (Jesse has a cool studio at his place!) but that's a bit impossible. Isn't it sad that I can't simply be happy by doing nothing but am constantly seeking something new under society's umbrella of artifcially created activities to amuse myself?

Chris rang me yesterday morning from Chile. She's going to Rio for Carnivale, Peru, Bolivia, Brazil, and all these other places with some random person. Wish I was there now! I would like to go overseas and live there for awhile. However, it's probably not the surroundings that will fulfil me but finding peace within myself. Not that I don't have peace within myself... argh can't quite articulate what I mean!

Anyways, I have photos from my birthday drinks and Harbourlife which I will put up soon ... am getting a bit bored of posting photos from social events!!