Mel's Little World ...

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

The Singles Crew

... are no longer single. Except for me.

There were 3 of us. Warren, Jamson and I who hung out together as we were single and single people share a common bond of depending on each other as coupled up people naturally see their partners as priority and are sometimes overcome with love or whatever and forget their friends. That sounds quite negative and isn't completely true but there is a cultural divide between singles and couples.

Not that The Singles Crew did much together. It mainly consisted of bumming around the mall at Chatswood for hours doing nothing. But just that knowledge of knowing we didn't have someone bonded us. Sort of like in schools where all the computer nerds stuck together and shared that feeling of being rejected together. Not that I felt rejected, it was more of a liberating experience where I could do what I wanted without having to worry about embarassing anyone and then shared the funny stories back with The Singles Crew.

But I've found that overtime it reaches a stage where the funny stories start to become less frequent and then complaints start to seep in and soon we start sounding like Bridget Jones (I'm not referring specifically to The Singles Crew). You know what I mean- "How hard is it to meet a nice, normal, decent guy? a DECENT guy??" etc etc. I'm tinkering near that stage but it's good that I'm aware of it because as soon as you fall into that trap it all goes downhill! What i've learnt is that things come to me when I least expect it and what I should do is enjoy this time alone. But it's hard when ALL your friends and not just The Singles Crew are hooking up and would rather spend Saturday nights snuggling up watching movies.

Some stuff on da Crew:
- Warren: When we were bumming at the mall once, I entered Warren 20 times in a free photoshoot competition (similar to StarShots). He won. And he had to go ahead with it to claim the cash prize. He was so angry at me! They even put make up on his face! And they are going to use his picture in their commercials because "We want to show that people who aren't buff can still look good in photos". Hahah..

- Jamson: He's travelling in Europe and I particularly enjoyed this paragraph in one of his emails:
'Ive been living it up...paryting, smoking a bit of weed, getting drunk...all in Interlaken Switzerland. Ud be sooo proud of me Mel...i went ice climbing up a glacier, then mountain bike riding, and to top it all off...i took the plunge out of a helicopter and went skydiving. Definitely the best thing ive ever done. I felt free Mel. Its been the best 3 days of my life. Met some great ppl...mainly from Canada. I feel alive and i hope i stay this exhilirated'

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Sunset

On Wednesday, Katrina and I went to an opening of a surf store at Manly to take advantage of free stuff. After quickly drinking the chick drinks there, gobbling down canapes (well, kat did), watching models parade around, we grabbed a bag of free stuff and then walked over to the beach. It was really beautiful so I took pics of Kat on the beach. Was very peaceful walking around ... until we saw lebanese people drinking and thought oh crap we forgot about the cronulla riots and then went home.

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Kat looking out to the ocean

Monday, December 12, 2005

My 22nd Birthday Drinks

Since I love making collages, I made another one of my birthday drinks. Thanks Katrina for taking the photos at my party! I'm going to miss being 21...

Harbourlife

I got Harbourlife tickets for my birthday so me and Hotness 1 went to have a boogie next to the harbour. It was really beautiful dancing next to the water with the Harbour bridge and Opera house in view (see the photos I took below).



Sunday, December 04, 2005

A Different Direction

Today was a really beautiful Sunday which I spent having a 3 hour lunch with Johnny at Icebergs in Bondi. I went out the night before but my heart wasn't totally into it as I guess it's what I've been doing every week. The view was amazing because the sky was cloudless and the water was clear. I saw John Burgess (the Wheel of Fortune man) and he's aged heaps now and has some skin problem on his face.

When I became single, going out every weekend was heaps of fun and I would meet lots of interesting people and encounter different experiences but now I must be getting a bit bored because it's not as fun and fulfilling anymore. The question is, now what? My life has always been a bit balanced (going to the library after going shopping, going to Church after clubbing, dinner with Grandma before drinking with friends etc) and I like doing a bit of everything but what should I take up now?

I've been doing a bit more reading than usual, will be going to bible study, have borrowed a few German books to read to brush up on my German, have started a scrapbook (but I'm still keeping a diary) where I'll write more, will start playing piano more but these are just little things. What I would really like is a studio so I can fiddle around and compose different styles of music (Jesse has a cool studio at his place!) but that's a bit impossible. Isn't it sad that I can't simply be happy by doing nothing but am constantly seeking something new under society's umbrella of artifcially created activities to amuse myself?

Chris rang me yesterday morning from Chile. She's going to Rio for Carnivale, Peru, Bolivia, Brazil, and all these other places with some random person. Wish I was there now! I would like to go overseas and live there for awhile. However, it's probably not the surroundings that will fulfil me but finding peace within myself. Not that I don't have peace within myself... argh can't quite articulate what I mean!

Anyways, I have photos from my birthday drinks and Harbourlife which I will put up soon ... am getting a bit bored of posting photos from social events!!